Inner - Space

Today I am more reflective than frustrated, this is largely because I overslept a bit- despite which I still feel very tired, but that is neither here nor there.

Our minds, though often a mystery, are our greatest tools, take me - if you met me in the street, without a formal introduction, you'd have no way of knowing that I have self published 12 books, and am editing my 13th as we speak.

This is because, all of that is the work of the mind, my mind is complex and complicated, as I am sure yours is, that being said, mine is desperate to prove something, some deep laying worth.

I don't do this by being cruel like some, I do this by being kind, by creating, by writing.

If I were to tell you that yesterday I wrote 2,527 words, and today (before this post) I have already written 797 words, you'd probably be like "are you working on something for Uni?"

Some of it was, yes, but the majority has been personal projects and personal work. My mind stores ideas, stores information, that it might be useful later. Then I spew it out in the form of headbutting my keyboard until something like a book is formed.

I also have notebooks, boy do I have notebooks, so many that my girlfriend often reminds me that I have a whole bunch that are unused. I have note books that are cheap, that aren't, that are scribbled in, that aren't i have 2 identical red ones, they are very cool. I like notebooks. 

I am sorry, this is a thing I horde.

Speaking of Hordes, zombies! my next book is a zombie book, it comes out in November, and it is like my mind, in that there is more than one thing going on, I have had that in multiple books already, and I wonder if it is a problem.

I wrestle with imposter syndrome daily, again I am sure most creative minds do, but days like today I feel it most, so I wanted to push through and do something, even if it ends up being rambly and a bit disjointed.

But I suppose if I am to close this out with any though from my mind it is this:

be kind to others, the mind remembers pain, and it leaves scars we can't see, and cruelty has consequences.

Be Kind.

Neal out.

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