JealousGod216

The last couple of days have been something of a no-show from me, I have had some issues with my sleep pattern and this has led to me being lethargic, disheartened, tired. More so then usual. But I wanted to take a moment to talk about something that has been rattling around in my brain for the last several days - but to discuss it, I need to share the crux of what started me on this trail. I saw a post on a social media platform by a writer, that made a specific note of; "Not all stories need to be told" Now, I am going start by discussing what the posters intended  point was, then I'll get to my points in relation to this. this may be a long post, and that was one of the things I was most concerned with doing when it came to post in previous iterations of this blog.  The intended point of the poster was that not all stories can be told at the time the writer/creator dreams them up, and there is plenty of evidence in media to support this point of view, we see time and a...

So today, I really struggled, for context yesterday I was at a very low mood all day and frankly getting myself out of bed this morning was a bit of a task, that all being said as the day has gone on I have done more to correct my course. first I wrote a little on a new project that may or may not become something substantial, but 600 words is a nice amount all the same, keeps the grey matter ticking. second, I did something I have been meaning to do for a while - I have begun to roll out my ebooks on additional platforms. I have submitted 2 of my books to both Kobo and Google ebook stores, I will be adding more tomorrow, as well as adding these and any other to Apple ebook store. The two books are: The why is pretty straightforward: Coffee collection is a collection of my 4 current poetry and short story anthologies, and Junderfell is my previous best book, with "We Will Not Survive" being the new best (it drops in November, more news to follow). I'll be bringing all of ...

The following is a long, dark read, dealing with some dark themes and subjects, reader discretion is advised. ~~ Today I need to rest, I overdid it yesterday, having underdone.... is that a word?.... anyway, I haven't been active for long enough, to then do loads in a day, I am now very tired, and achy. That said my brain and my fingers work just fine (giggidy), so I figure I would write a bit. I posted a video on TikTok explaining to a small extent my disdain for generative AI, now I am very clear on this, there is dangerous AI, and there is fair AI. Fair AI examples: spell checker, grammar checker, Maps, circle to search, auto generated captioning, algorithmic shuffle on music sites. These and others use, what I will refer to as, assistive AI, they work within a set of parameters, they don't create something, they don't do the work for you, they work to enable some level of individual thought, a gentle nudge of information, but never a 'thinking for you' approach....

 I often wonder why my dreams, or more accurately nightmares, are as intense as they are. a brief truth here, I have had struggles with my mental health, and over the last few years I have been seeing various therapists, and am now on a waiting list for a specialist. this is all to say that I am to some extent, troubled. I am plagued with very dark nightmares, have been for as long as I remember, and part of me wrestles with what that means. that being said, they don't affect my day to day, they have inspired books, moments turned into something positive. Perhaps that is why I have them, so I can project good with them?? Just a thought. Neal.

Today I am more reflective than frustrated, this is largely because I overslept a bit- despite which I still feel very tired, but that is neither here nor there. Our minds, though often a mystery, are our greatest tools, take me - if you met me in the street, without a formal introduction, you'd have no way of knowing that I have self published 12 books, and am editing my 13th as we speak. This is because, all of that is the work of the mind, my mind is complex and complicated, as I am sure yours is, that being said, mine is desperate to prove something, some deep laying worth. I don't do this by being cruel like some, I do this by being kind, by creating, by writing. If I were to tell you that yesterday I wrote 2,527 words, and today (before this post) I have already written 797 words, you'd probably be like "are you working on something for Uni?" Some of it was, yes, but the majority has been personal projects and personal work. My mind stores ideas, stores info...

I don't think this is news, but everything is a bit messed up right now, the world seems on the precipice of the end of times. Funnily for many people this might actually be a relief, finally no more tax returns! No more stubbing our toes! we wont' have toes!!! Of course for some it is a dark and depressing time, to quote the yoot of the day; it's giving apocalypse. But please, hold the zombies or cannibalism, I cannot possibly taste good. America has a diminutive orange psycho in charge, and far as I can see it, the rest of the world is doomed to burn because leaders are too afraid of him and Israel to do anything, and all the while everyone is posting on social media, about their wants and needs and desires. There are AI writers and bots, and "film scenes", actors that are AI, and AI farms are burning through so much water that every environmental expert is worried, yet people needs those cool little avatars, cause those will be cool when we are all molten ash. ...